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a new baby (in the family) Oct. 11th, 2005 @ 11:50 am
well it is offical last night at 11:54pm (michigan time)my cousin melanie gave birth to my new baby cousin mackenzie renea johnson she was 7lbs 13 ozs 21inches and has dark hair i talk to melanie today and she sounds really good she has breastfed a couple of times and just sounds really with it
Current Mood: excited

giving up Sep. 27th, 2005 @ 02:48 pm
ok well it is official i have given up on the dream of getting pregnant it is not going to happen for me so why dream about it not to mention i am too tired to keep trying
Current Mood: numb

life is not fun Sep. 26th, 2005 @ 09:56 pm
well we made it through the storm and all that happened at our house is that a tree fell and our back fence came down but life is just really stressful right now anyways i do not go back to work until wednesday and after friday jake will not have a job anymore and then there is a lot of tension with us trying to get pregnant (which makes me cranky) and jake got his sleep machine but a piece is not right so he is not using it so he is cranky and i am not sure that i can't handle his crankiness nor can i handle trying anymore plus i am not sure that it will ever work (so i am trying to figure out how to deal with giving up the dream of having my own family, although i don't know that it will be possible for me to let go of that dream, but i don't know how else to deal with it not working for all this time, even with all the meds that i am on) i just do not know how to deal with all of this at once i am just not optimistic about it anymore and am not sure how to ever be again
Current Mood: confused

dealing Sep. 12th, 2005 @ 02:45 pm
well i took a test on saturday and it was positive so the test i took on tuesday was just too early but i started bleeding some yesterday and i went into the doctor today and she did a test and it did not stick so i was pregnant but i am no longer but we are going to keep trying we are going to go ahead and start another clomid cycle and the worst part of it is that we are not the only ones that this is hurting it hurts our family and close friend too because they want this for us as much as we do
Current Mood: crushed

who knows Sep. 6th, 2005 @ 10:02 pm
well we thought we were pregnant and we might not be i took a test tonight and it was negative but we are going to take another test in a couple of day since i am not due to start until saturday
Current Mood: crushed
Other entries
» possibilities
well i was ovulating this weekend and we did what we where suppossed to do and so there is a chance that we (i) could be pregnant we are trying not to get to excited but we both have a really good feeling and are hoping that all worked well so we are keeping our fingers crossed and trying to keep our eyes open and not get too consumed until we know and we should know on the 10th which is about a week away
Sep. 1st, 2005 @ 09:52 pm
» jake is gettig a mask
well we now have discovered that jake has sleep apnea he went and got two sleep studies done and it is official and the doctor gave the ok for him to get the machine so he will be getting a good nights rest soon and being annoying like he was when we first started dating i cant wait (neither of us can) so hopefully we will have an easier time conceiving since he will have more energy
Aug. 25th, 2005 @ 09:23 pm
» still working on it
well we were not successful again last month but we have found out that my hubby is having some problems because of his sleep apnea and we are getting that worked out hopefully by the end of the week i just finished another round of clomid and we are giving it another shot this month hopefully it will work out if not i guess we will just keep trying well i started back to work about a week and a half ago and we get kids staring tomorrow so wish me luck on getting my class acclimated to their new surrounding and help them have fun at school i actually cant wait i have missed teaching(as crazy as that sounds) well i guess thats it for now
Aug. 21st, 2005 @ 04:08 pm
» trying
well jake and i have been trying to start a family for some time now we found out in march that i have a problem named PCOS (polycystic ovarian syndrome) so i am not ovulating because of this well we did not like our doc so we have found a new one and everything looks promising she check to make sure that i do not have any cysts and had me do a test to see if my tubes are open and they are (yea!) she also has me on a med to help me ovulate and another to help with the rest of the issue that go along with this problem so we will again be trying this month and we are very hopeful and excited to see how well this works and to add a child to our family so please keep us in your prayers and as soon as we know anything i will let ya'll know
Aug. 21st, 2005 @ 04:05 pm
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♥Nicki and ♥Jacob
  • May one day have a handful of pre-paid girls.
  • Elect to take long walks at the most inconvenient times.
  • Incite each other to love and fine works.
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Feb. 24th, 2004 @ 02:50 pm
» hey
happy new year

things have been hectic my wedding is 2 weeks aways but i a excited


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Jan. 9th, 2004 @ 03:26 pm
» Moving
i am moving on Nov 1 into the apartment that my fiance and i will live in after we are married and i forgot how much was involved in moving all the packing and stuff oh my goodness this is hard work not to mention all the memories i am dealing with while going through stuff to pack it up or get rid of it but it is all for the best we gotta get back to work
Oct. 21st, 2003 @ 10:15 pm
» my new job
well i recently got a new job in august and i am loving it the staff and kids are wonderful i love my coworker and my boss they are so supportive and are always willing to help i am in my last semester of college now and i am so excited and ready for it to be over (only 2 months left) and it will be easier to get my work stuff done after that too the parents in my class are wonderful and just so sweet and willing to listen to any suggestions that we may have (all 12 of my kids were new to school) but my kids are adjusting very well i am so excited to see how much they change and grow through out the year and hopefully my confidence level will go up a bit after i have been here a bit long and get more used to things and after i am done with school because life is just so hectic lately (it will be nice when it slows down a bit) well gtg ttyl
Oct. 6th, 2003 @ 10:48 pm
» website
just thought i would let everyone know that jacob and i are setting up a wedding website with most of the info you will need the addy is http://wedding.smock.com i hope ya'll like it if you have any ideas on what more we can do to it feel free to pass tham along
Jul. 28th, 2003 @ 09:09 am
» engaged
i just wanted to let every one know that i got engaged on Sunday June 22, 2003. the wedding is set for Saturday January 24, 2004. my sweetie proposed in an interesting way we were watching the movie Tombstone and right after the part were they tell Doc Holiday they don't know how long he has to live and Doc talks to his female "friend", Jacob turned to me and asked me "honey do you think we need to reassess the nature of our association?" (which is what Doc told his female "friend") i told him no and he pulled the ring out of his pocket and said oh you mean you don't want this and i told him that yes i wanted it i just didn't think that was what he meant when he asked that question. we are planning on having a catholic wedding and we have a meeting with the priest this sunday (June 29) at 1pm to find out some info and some particulars i will update more after that
Jun. 27th, 2003 @ 09:18 am
» not sure how to deal
my uncle passed on this last monday but it did not hit me until the funeral on thursday and then i lost it and to be honest i am quite depressed now and don't want to do anything but lay in bed i just don't know how to deal with him not being here he and i were very very close he was my favorite uncle and i just don't know how to make it through with out him cause he was more than just an uncle to me he was one of my best friends i know he would not want me to feel this way but it just hurts so much he is not supposed to be gone yet he was too young but oh well i guess everything happens for a reason but i just wish i knew why this had to happen cause if i could just curl up in a ball and stay there i would (but i know that i have to finish college if for no other reason than to make my uncle proud, but past that i dunno what is gonna happen) i just don't want to do anything, talk to or see anyone either so we'll see what happens
Apr. 18th, 2003 @ 09:41 am
» chillin
well i was just sittin here chillin and thought that i should update my journal since it has been a while well since the last time i updated i have had spring break which i got to spend with my niece and nephew and school started back last week and i am doing pretty good in my classes (yea) and i have to do an internship this summer so that i can graduate in december and it has been worked out so that i can do it at the center that i wanted to do it at (Chapelwood School for Young Children) it is a really nice school and one of my teachers is the nursery director there i think i am gonna enjoy it well i guess thats it for now
Mar. 31st, 2003 @ 04:00 pm
» mardi gras
well i went to mardi gras in galveston this weekend and it was fun but i am not really a partier nor am i willing to do stupid stuff for plastic beads so i watched my friends and other people make big-time fools out of themselves but it was fun we stayed in galveston saturday night and for some reason we went to the beach at about 1 a.m. (bad idea) then my friends went to a party next door but i stayed and watched t.v. on sunday we hung out till about 1 p.m. then headed home i got home just before 3 p.m. then last night i went to see jacob i had missed him soooo much (he is such a sweet heart) well i guess thats it for now
Mar. 3rd, 2003 @ 01:49 pm
» this week
well since the last time i wrote a lots of stuff has gone on and it has been exhausting but fun for the most part last weekend i helped a friend move then this week i had work and school but yesterday was the worst i had 10 wining three year olds for 5 hours then i had two one year olds a three year old and a four year old for 2 and 1/2 hours and two of them were winy i then i had to go to school till 9 and i still have homework that i have to do and turn in today for my internet class i would turn it in tomorrow but i will not have access to a computer tomorrow because i will be at mardi gras in galveston and i won't be home till sometime sunday but i guess thats it for now i will let ya'll know how this weekend goes
Feb. 28th, 2003 @ 08:44 am
» weekend
it has been a very exhausting time since i last wrote i had a cousin lose her twin boys at 24 and 26 weeks of pregnancy and had a crap load of homework hung out with a friend and also with my boyfriend i talked to a couple of old friends too and was up till 4 sunday night but it was worth it i had really been missing those friends i am just glad that the weekend is over now and i just have to deal with work and school and i have a test on valentines day which sucks but as far as i know i do not have plans not as of yet anyways i am working on that well i guess i better get back to my homework i will try to write again soon
Feb. 10th, 2003 @ 02:14 pm

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